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Old 12-07-2013, 10:16 PM
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Default A Day in the Life of Nathan Leal - Living with the Disease of Lupus

A Day in the Life of Nathan Leal -
Living with the Disease of Lupus

A Message from My Heart

Nathan Leal - December 7, 2013

I have Lupus, there I said it!

I have not wanted to admit it. But it's true folks.

I have had this wretched disease for approximately ten years and it hasn’t been easy. Up to this point, I have kept it to myself and have only shared it with a few individuals.

Most people do not know what it is and because of that they do not understand how horrible it is.

One reason that I have kept it private is because I know how people are; some are quick to assume, judge, scoff, mock and even celebrate at the knowledge of someone else’s struggle, trial or ailment.

But I have decided not to worry about that. We will all stand before GOD someday, right folks?

So, I have decided that it was time to share the battle that I have with this disease and make it public.

For those of you who do not know, Lupus is an autoimmune disease where the body’s immune system attacks itself. A normal immune system is always on the prowl for invading pathogens, viruses, and bacteria. But with Lupus the body’s immune system attacks its own organs and tissue.

This results in a body that thinks it is fighting a sickness but is instead attacking itself. To understand what it is like, some of the symptoms are similar to what you might feel when your body is fighting the flu.

During a pre-flu battle, the human body assigns antibodies to fight the invading influenza virus. To do this, the body works overtime. This results in a body that becomes fatigued, weak, tired and sleepy.

If you can relate, this is what it is like…ALL THE TIME!

With Lupus, the body is in this fighting mode perpetually! But instead of attacking the flu, the body attacks itself.

The results are negative, damaging and life threatening.

* The waking day is an uphill battle to find a few hours that are fruitful.
* Many joints are pained with arthritis.
* Every day is a battle for strength.
* The fatigue is tormenting.
* There is brain fog and memory loss.
* Finding energy to function comes in spurts that are temporary.
* ...other symptoms.

This is what Lupus does, but it does not stop there, eventually it kills you. It destroys the organs; the kidneys, liver, heart, lungs, joints…

I sometimes wonder which organ is going to go first. But I shake it off and whisper a prayer!

So how do I function with this? It is not easy and my family knows it all too well.

My wife is a gracious woman who cares for me and understands. She works very hard to fill the gaps with the children, homeschooling, helping with the ministry…

I am blessed to have her.

Is it hard? …Words cannot describe and because of the ailment, I am daily seeking for pockets of energy to pray, study, write and deliver sermons.

I must also edit articles, research and respond to emails and attend to the family.
We are also trying to have a little farm. Recently, I had pre-winter chores that required swinging a hammer.

How did that go? It was slow and cumbersome but when I am weak, He is strong!

The Waking Day

Some days are totally lost to fatigue. The average person gets about 16 hours of awake time in a 24 hour day.

But because of this disease, I do not get as many hours to be fruitful.

Some days the joint pain makes it difficult to work or even write, sometimes holding a pen is a challenge. But all of my sermons are handwritten, some of them are 50 or more pages in a notebook.

So I write through the pain…

…The work must continue.

Am I whining? No, I am sharing that I know what pain is. I know frustration! I know what it is like when a body once healthy and strong no longer wants to participate.

…But the work must continue.

I am a watchman. God called me, not only to be a Watchman but a preacher for ministry. So the work must continue.

And in this life, I can say with confidence that I know priorities.

…Devotion to my GOD.

…Devotion to this ministry because the fields are white unto harvest. There are still too many souls wandering along the hedge. They must be compelled to come back.

And in my time on this earth, I want to be used to help to fill His house.

…Devotion to my family. I have an amazing wife and children who know this battle. They know that this life is fleeting and they are one of my greatest earthly rewards.

Ladies and gentlemen this life is not about pleasure… and stuff! It is about planting for the LORD and harvesting fruit for His Kingdom…

…It is about following Christ.

…It is about knowing that our lives are but a vapor.

…It is about acting accordingly unto others.

…It is about knowing that the only thing that we get to take to Heaven are the things that we did for God’s Kingdom.

So what else could possibly matter?

…therefore the work must continue!

And with God’s strength it will continue. But I do sometimes wonder how much time I have left. Some Lupus victims only make it ten years, some live a longer life. Which one will I be?

I will be honest, I think about it a lot. But I have no idea. I am praying and asking GOD for a few more decades…if He tarries.

Will I get them? I don’t know. But if the Lord tarries, I want to live long enough to see my baby daughter grow up and walk down the aisle on her Special Day. ..Right now, she is only seven.

Priorities and Perspective

My daily goals are not complicated.

When I awaken, I ask GOD for energy to do the day’s task. Sometimes I have the energy, sometimes I don’t.

On a challenging day, I might sit down in my office to work, but after just a few hours, I find my eyes and body fighting fatigue.

“I need to lie down for a few minutes,” I tell my wife. She says, "okay.”

I lay down, get my Bible.

“God give me a Word,” I ask.

The words come. They flow.

…another Holy Ghost download.

I tell myself, “I had better write this down.”

I get a notebook and start writing. Twenty to thirty pages later, I have another sermon. I have a hundred notebooks stacked on the shelf with these types of messages.

If only I had the strength and energy to share all of them.

This is another prayer that I have, “Lord please give me the time to share these things.”

I am holding onto that prayer request!

Why am I sharing these things? Because I wanted the public to know that Nathan Leal struggles.

I also want to share that I do not have a lot of expendable time.

Sometimes I receive letters from listeners, “Call me, Nathan.”

Folks, I would if I could but most of my functional moments are spent working on my messages that I must share...

…and time with my family.

I do not ignore the requests on purpose. I am not a diva, I am just sick.
Why hasn’t GOD healed me? That is a billion dollar question.

Do I have the faith? Indeed! I also have the faith of my family. They would love a healing.

So why has it not happened? I don’t know.

Is there a natural remedy out there? Again, I don’t know. Over the years I have heard of a few that claimed to be. - Eat this… Drink this… take this… do this… stay away from this… don’t touch that!

I have had this horrible thing for ten years. I do not like it. But I have to believe that in God’s sovereignty. There is a reason.

God knows, He has my attention and having this ailment sure does things to my perspective.

Before this disease my eyes were a wide angle lens. Today with this disease they are more focused on things that matter.

Is this why HE allowed it?

Over the past few years of ailment. God has taught me a few things. I have noticed that the more broken and ailing my flesh is, the better I hear Him.

Is this the trade off?
…God’s secrets for my pain? I do not know.

Dearly beloved, I want to learn many more things so that I can share them with you. I also desire the strength to do it and while I am still here on this earth this is my passion.

So there you have it…a peek at my journey.

For the few of you who support this ministry. My family and I thank you from the bottom of our hearts. Thank you for remembering us.

Las week, I released the beginning message of a very important series. If you have not heard it, please do so.

Some of the email responses about the last message are telling me that it is life changing. Some are telling me that the Holy Ghost was present as they listened.…thank you Lord.

The next part is coming and I believe that it will be life altering for many. So please be looking for it. It will be out in a few days.

The message will continue a powerful theme. How can we get there?

“And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.”
Revelation 12:11

I believe that we can get there. I seek to do a part to help in that journey.

Brethren, what I share today is to offer some disclosure about me and this ministry. I welcome your prayers. By faith I look forward to serving you for years to come.

In Christ with Love,

Nathan Leal
Watchman’s Cry Ministries
"For thus hath the Lord said unto me, Go, set a watchman, let him declare what he seeth." Isaiah 21:6
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Old 12-07-2013, 11:24 PM
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My dearest brother, Nathan, it is with weeping tears that I read your disclosure. I commend you for the courage and the vulnerability it has taken for you to publically share what you and your family have been living through for the last ten years.

Before knowing you, lupus was only a rarely heard word, a disease I knew very little about, and did not know anyone, personally, who suffered from it, as you have.

When I read or listen to one of your messages, I treasure them, knowing how sacrificially you have labored, thru many trials, to give us the meat of what the Holy Spirit has laid upon you for such a time as this.

I shall continue to pray for you often for your strength and complete healing, as we know nothing is impossible with Christ Jesus. And pray for your beloved wife and children, trusting Jesus to strengthen and bless them as they serve along side of you.

You and your dear wife have my support as you minister, His message of repentance and warning in these last days. Thank you, for being HIS faithful servant. It is an honor and a joy to know you.

Much Love to you, to Donna, and your precious family, now and forever.


KJV - Psa 37: 1 - 5 "Fret not thyself because of evildoers, neither be thou envious against the workers of iniquity. For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb. Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed. Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass."

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Old 12-08-2013, 04:04 AM
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Oh my!...I am truly sorry to hear of your life threatening, struggles with this debilitating disease Nathan I will definitely be adding you and your family to my daily prayerlist!

I have a watchman friend from another site who seems to be going through similar struggles. His desire, like yours, is to get God's message out even though he suffers greatly...

May the Lord bless you and your family mightily as you continue to obey his will and release the fullness of your ministry. May he heal you completely by the power and the anointing of the Holy Spirit and may he supply all your needs and the needs of your household, according to his awesome riches in glory!

Shalom Achi!
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Old 12-08-2013, 06:29 AM
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Nathan it was with great sadness I read of your cross……..but I also understand God's way is not man's way and that all that comes to us in this world is either permitted or willed by God…….the Lord giveth, the Lord taketh away, praise be the Lord…….
I will keep you in my prayers……..may God grant unto you strength with your cross……..vaya con Dios!
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Old 12-08-2013, 08:42 AM
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CALLED/CHOSEN seem to walk on the edge of death. But I feel it's all part of the walk

2 Corinthians

8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;

9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;

10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.

Isaiah 41 1Keep silence before me, O islands; and let the people renew their strength: let them come near; then let them speak: let us come near together to judgment.

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Old 12-08-2013, 08:52 AM
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I was deeply moved by your story Nathan. Wow, I am at a complete loss for words except I am so very sorry to hear these things. May God grant you the strength to continue the ministry he has called you to.

I will now consider it a privilege to pray for you and your wonderful family.

Many, many Blessings to you dear friend.

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Old 12-08-2013, 09:30 AM
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I have been praying for you. But now I know how to pray even better.

This verse comes to mind.

2Cr 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

I have had some of the problems that you mentioned. But I believe it is because of allergies to foods.

Praying for strength and that you can get out all the words that God has for you to give.

I do know that you will live as long as The Lord has for you to live. When it is time to go home it is time. In my family, we always thought that my dad would go first. It did not go the way we thought it would go. My mom passed first, which was a shock to all of us.

God bless you for using your time for God. May he bless you.
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Old 12-08-2013, 12:09 PM
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Like Ed, I am also at a loss for the right words.

However, I do know that reading this information just makes me have all the more respect for you, knowing that you have already done so much to push on despite all that is hindering you.

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Old 12-08-2013, 12:31 PM
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I echo every sentiment expressed here. Your email genuinely grieved my heart. You and your family will continue to be in my prayers.

Much love,

Michael and Laura Lea
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Old 12-08-2013, 12:34 PM
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Nathan and I have really struggled with the decision to share this information.

It is a very personal issue for us. But over the last couple of years we have got so many requests for Nathans time or complaints that Nathan was not available to meet with people.

If any of you actually knew Nathan, then you would know he is the farthest thing from a diva. He is a very down to earth guy.

Already we have gotten many suggestions for how to "heal" the Lupus. We have been dealing with this for 10 years. I have tried many many many natural "cures" on my poor husband. But we have not found a solution.

We have not been on this journey with our heads in the sand.

We are believing for a healing. And for now that has to be enough.

My husband is not the same physical guy he was 20 years ago. We cannot take vacations unless their is a spot to nap quietly available to him. We cannot spend all day out in the sun. Because that means two days lost after the fact.

I tell my daughter stories of how daddy used to be before Lupus.

But we cling to the time we have and love each other with all our might.

This is OUR (me and the kids) journey..not just Nathan's. And we will journey it together.

Thank you for your prayers.

Isa 50:7
For the Lord GOD will help me; therefore shall I not be confounded: therefore have I set my face like a flint, and I know that I shall not be ashamed.
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